I just love the stage Lilah is at right now. Her imagination is so fun to watch! She has been filling up my phone lately with all her fun.
Friday, January 15, 2016
Wednesday, January 13, 2016
Sunday, January 10, 2016
Thoughts on week one
This will be scattered and jump all over the place. But I wanted to get my feelings down. It will be interesting to look back on this in the months to come.
Well, I have been back to my new, old job for a week now. So how does it feel? Well, pretty much the same as when I left. It feels pretty normal. A lot of it feels the same as when I left. However, there is a somewhat different cast of characters, four people left shortly after I did. So now there are several new people starting. I left and it was a pretty experienced group, now, lots of newbies. The newbies are wide-eyed and excited. The couple that weathered the storm of the last year are tired and somewhat beaten down. A few need some energy pumped back into their system to get through the busy season that is fast upon us. While some I need to slow down, saying don't worry you will get to work all the long hours you have heard about soon enough.
Starting out the first week, I felt overwhelmed with lots of responsibility on my shoulders. Our leader has mentally transitioned to his next phase of life. He is in the office physically, but very ready to moving into retirement. I feel as though I have little time to squeeze every ounce of knowledge out of his head. I am thankful he and I have a very open and honest relationship. We trust each other and he is willing to share with me the good and bad that is to come. Transitions are hard. Hard for employees and for clients. I feel a lot of pressure to make sure both are happy. I know I have it in me, but if I let my woman mind get away from me it is overwhelming. Unfortunately, I came back to something that is broken and it will take some hard work to fix.
The middle of the week I came home and poured my heart out to Tim. He has already been amazingly helpful. I used to pick the girls up every day, but that is just not feasible. We will have to work together to run the household smoothly with more weight being on his shoulders at times. I have organized our house and my mind knowing that busy times are fast approaching. However, I have this intense guilt that I am not doing enough at home. While I hate turning over jobs, especially that are related to the girls, I know it just has to happen. Mentally my mind is split between running and office and a household. Over the last year there was really no mental time spent on work. I just went to work and that was it. I never thought about work at home. I know it will get easier and really I do love this challenge. I think the biggest challenge of this year will be learning to not internalize stress. Tim is so very good at this. I am trying so hard to listen to his words of wisdom he has been giving me.
Other things on my mind are how to correctly lead the office. During my mid week break down, I was voicing to Tim all the different personalities and challenges. I was worried about having credibility with the newer people and regaining the respect/trust of the ones I had left for a year. He basically told me to chill out and just do what I do. Lead by example and do what I feel is best for the office. He encouraged me that I was good before and I will be good again. Lots of things I needed to hear. I started the next day with a much more positive attitude and ready to conquer the world. I am continually reminding myself that this is a journey. I am trying to have a positive mindset and have some fun along the way. Prayers for keeping my mind and attitude in check would be greatly appreciated!
Well, I have been back to my new, old job for a week now. So how does it feel? Well, pretty much the same as when I left. It feels pretty normal. A lot of it feels the same as when I left. However, there is a somewhat different cast of characters, four people left shortly after I did. So now there are several new people starting. I left and it was a pretty experienced group, now, lots of newbies. The newbies are wide-eyed and excited. The couple that weathered the storm of the last year are tired and somewhat beaten down. A few need some energy pumped back into their system to get through the busy season that is fast upon us. While some I need to slow down, saying don't worry you will get to work all the long hours you have heard about soon enough.
Starting out the first week, I felt overwhelmed with lots of responsibility on my shoulders. Our leader has mentally transitioned to his next phase of life. He is in the office physically, but very ready to moving into retirement. I feel as though I have little time to squeeze every ounce of knowledge out of his head. I am thankful he and I have a very open and honest relationship. We trust each other and he is willing to share with me the good and bad that is to come. Transitions are hard. Hard for employees and for clients. I feel a lot of pressure to make sure both are happy. I know I have it in me, but if I let my woman mind get away from me it is overwhelming. Unfortunately, I came back to something that is broken and it will take some hard work to fix.
The middle of the week I came home and poured my heart out to Tim. He has already been amazingly helpful. I used to pick the girls up every day, but that is just not feasible. We will have to work together to run the household smoothly with more weight being on his shoulders at times. I have organized our house and my mind knowing that busy times are fast approaching. However, I have this intense guilt that I am not doing enough at home. While I hate turning over jobs, especially that are related to the girls, I know it just has to happen. Mentally my mind is split between running and office and a household. Over the last year there was really no mental time spent on work. I just went to work and that was it. I never thought about work at home. I know it will get easier and really I do love this challenge. I think the biggest challenge of this year will be learning to not internalize stress. Tim is so very good at this. I am trying so hard to listen to his words of wisdom he has been giving me.
Other things on my mind are how to correctly lead the office. During my mid week break down, I was voicing to Tim all the different personalities and challenges. I was worried about having credibility with the newer people and regaining the respect/trust of the ones I had left for a year. He basically told me to chill out and just do what I do. Lead by example and do what I feel is best for the office. He encouraged me that I was good before and I will be good again. Lots of things I needed to hear. I started the next day with a much more positive attitude and ready to conquer the world. I am continually reminding myself that this is a journey. I am trying to have a positive mindset and have some fun along the way. Prayers for keeping my mind and attitude in check would be greatly appreciated!
Wednesday, January 6, 2016
Lilah: Three Years and Six Months
Lilah, my little cuddle bug today is your half birthday. You are THREE and A HALF!!!!!
Here are some fun tidbits about you at 3.5 years old.
- Every morning before coming to wake us up you dress yourself complete with a headband.
- You are a fancy girly girl. You like dresses and dress up shoes or "walking heels" as you call them.
- You love to entertain us with singing and dancing. You will get the cd player out, plug it in and start singing and dancing away, usually Kidz Bopz or Bible songs. Most often you will be wearing a skirt pulled up as a dress and walking heels.
- You found a pacifier in your baby stuff and I have found it in your mouth on occasion.
- You LOVE babies. That is all you wanted for Christmas, babies. You play school with them all the time. I gave you pieces of cardboard that you pretend are "cots". You lay out cots all over the playroom and cover up all your babies for nap time.
- You are LOUD. You know how to produce some volume girly. When you sing, yell, announce, sometimes just talking, you do so for all to hear. You use your whole body and can really work your diaphragm.
- You are sweet to all babies. You love to mother.
- You use words like actually, probably, accidentally, freaking out, oh my gosh and so many others grown up sounding words. All with the appropriate sigh, disgust, or excitement.
- You tell really great stories. However, when you tell them you act like you are 13 years old.
- You are still our cuddly girl. Often when you are tired you will cuddle up in my arms just like you were my little baby.
- No signs of giving up that thumb anytime soon. Any time you have something silky in your hand the thumb goes straight to you mouth. Even if you see something silky or like a taggie, it means thumb in mouth!
- You are very stubborn. When you want something or don't want something, you will dig your heels in deep.
- You love books. Your teachers tell us that you will sometimes sit in the book corner for over an hour reading.
- You are our shy girl. There are times you just clam up and won't speak to anyone. You will just hold tight to mom or dad in a crowd.
- You still scrunch up your little nose sometimes when you smile.
- You are still a daddy's girl. However, I am starting to get a little more love these days.
- You are your sister's shadow. Whatever she does you want to do. You girls are constantly playing school or mom/baby. Most of the time you guys get along great. But you are starting to have your own opinion, which sometimes doesn't go over well with your opinionated sister.
- At night when we sing your bedtime songs, you will hum the tune.
- You love chips! Sometimes if offered a cookie you will choose chips instead.
- You still love Minnie Mouse.
- You love purple and pink.
Lilah you are just a joy. You are our petite girl with lots of personality. You are loving and kind with just the right amount of spicy to keep it interesting. We love you so very much and are so very thankful you are our little lady.
Love you forever and always,
Mommy
Here are some fun tidbits about you at 3.5 years old.
- Every morning before coming to wake us up you dress yourself complete with a headband.
- You are a fancy girly girl. You like dresses and dress up shoes or "walking heels" as you call them.
- You love to entertain us with singing and dancing. You will get the cd player out, plug it in and start singing and dancing away, usually Kidz Bopz or Bible songs. Most often you will be wearing a skirt pulled up as a dress and walking heels.
- You found a pacifier in your baby stuff and I have found it in your mouth on occasion.
- You LOVE babies. That is all you wanted for Christmas, babies. You play school with them all the time. I gave you pieces of cardboard that you pretend are "cots". You lay out cots all over the playroom and cover up all your babies for nap time.
- You are LOUD. You know how to produce some volume girly. When you sing, yell, announce, sometimes just talking, you do so for all to hear. You use your whole body and can really work your diaphragm.
- You are sweet to all babies. You love to mother.
- You use words like actually, probably, accidentally, freaking out, oh my gosh and so many others grown up sounding words. All with the appropriate sigh, disgust, or excitement.
- You tell really great stories. However, when you tell them you act like you are 13 years old.
- You are still our cuddly girl. Often when you are tired you will cuddle up in my arms just like you were my little baby.
- No signs of giving up that thumb anytime soon. Any time you have something silky in your hand the thumb goes straight to you mouth. Even if you see something silky or like a taggie, it means thumb in mouth!
- You are very stubborn. When you want something or don't want something, you will dig your heels in deep.
- You love books. Your teachers tell us that you will sometimes sit in the book corner for over an hour reading.
- You are our shy girl. There are times you just clam up and won't speak to anyone. You will just hold tight to mom or dad in a crowd.
- You still scrunch up your little nose sometimes when you smile.
- You are still a daddy's girl. However, I am starting to get a little more love these days.
- You are your sister's shadow. Whatever she does you want to do. You girls are constantly playing school or mom/baby. Most of the time you guys get along great. But you are starting to have your own opinion, which sometimes doesn't go over well with your opinionated sister.
- At night when we sing your bedtime songs, you will hum the tune.
- You love chips! Sometimes if offered a cookie you will choose chips instead.
- You still love Minnie Mouse.
- You love purple and pink.
Lilah you are just a joy. You are our petite girl with lots of personality. You are loving and kind with just the right amount of spicy to keep it interesting. We love you so very much and are so very thankful you are our little lady.
Love you forever and always,
Mommy
Sunday, January 3, 2016
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