This week has been an emotional week. Next Monday I will return to my super exciting job as a tax accountant. Although I have worked some off and on during this go around of leave, I have always had my cute little sidekick, Lilah by my side. Starting on Monday she will start going to Stacy's with her big sister Addy. While I have absolutely no fears leaving her with Stacy, I still will miss my little girl. Throughout my leave Addy has continued to go to Stacy's so that I could spend special time bonding with our new daughter. I must say Lilah and I have quite a bond. She is totally a mama's girl, which I don't mind one bit. It will be hard not to spend every minute with this little one, but I also think I am ready for the transition.
This time around I know the first year will be difficult, full of changes, schedule adjustments, and adjusting to a new normal. Last time I was mad I had to go back. My mom stayed home with all of us kids, so I felt that was what every mom was supposed to do. I always dreamed I would be a stay at home mom. So I was mad at Tim and the situation of going back to work 3 years ago. However, after about a year, I realized I like my job. I am good at my job. I almost feel like I am a better mom juggling work and home life. It makes me really enjoy the time I have off with my kids and try to pack in fun and quality time when I can. I also enjoy the challenges my work provides. With Addison I was still discovering and figuring out how to do the mom role. With Lilah I feel much more relaxed and confident that I am doing the best I can for my kids. Am I perfect? Absolutely not, but I am trying not to let the mom guilt seep in and take over. We have decided that two incomes work for our family, so we make the best out of the situation and navigate this crazy ride called parenthood as best we can.
Along with a good mindset, I also realize and am thankful for my workplace and boss. I have put in the time and effort to show that I am a good and faithful employee. When the going gets tough I am there, but they have also allowed me to have 3 months with my little girl during a very busy time. Also, since I worked some while I was off I am taking those hours off in the coming months. So my thoughts are I might leave early everyday or not work Fridays. We also have the holidays coming up which in my line of work is a slow time, so I am able to take lots of time off. I think transition back to work at this time is pretty much the perfect time. I am able to ease back into it and have a system working by the time busy season rolls around in February.
So to sum it up. Time to go back to work, a few tears will be shed and there will be lots of kisses on chubby cheeks. But I am ready for this new challenge and ready to kick its
4 comments:
You're amazing.
One positive of waiting to have kids is learning from all my friends that have gone before me. Hopefully I can be as graceful as you in handling the most important job of being a mom and also being a wonderful wife and good employee.
Where are the pictures? You always have pictures.
Some thoughts from the Auntie Tricia:
After your terrific visit up here, two wonderful daughters in tow, I remarked to my own two daughters, that the "Stay at Home Mom" may be a thing of the past. It is difficult to balance all things Home Economics.
I did work outside of the home when G & C were wee. I was much more organized, as a working Mom, than I was as a stay-at-homer.
There is GREAT in both aspects of your life. One must simply be conscience of the delicate balance - ALL THE TIME.
You are a great Momma and Wife. The four of you will flourish.
Belinda, thank you. You are so sweet. I have no doubt in my mind you will be an amazing mom!
Dad, stay tuned. There will be picture overload in the pumpkin patch post coming up.
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